Dear Diary...

Sano-senpai had a pep talk to me last night.
He was counselling me to have more confidence in myself, in terms of my musical abilities.
I was telling him how I feel "impatient" cos I'm so "old" already and still my playing is "not there yet"....
and how I had "kemerosotan" for 10 years and now I want to catch up with it.

Later on I realised how stupid it is to think about the 10 years.
It's as silly as saying, "aiyoh why after 10 lifetimes I'm still going thru samsara"...
Life is like that, everyone has their own "kamma"...
Uppekkha and Mudita.... if other pple have fantastic abilities, rejoice that they are blessed, probably they did a lot of good and it's their good kamma ripening.