Dear Diary...

It has been an emotionally tumultuous past 3 days, culminating with a "Wolverine attack" this afternoon.
The chat with Bah was so therapeutic, it was as if I was hit with a tranquiliser shot. I guess it's cos she and me same frequency and her words just clicked with me. And also the fact that she too has gone through the same thing taking care of her mom and she has been through depression too, so she knows exactly how to snap out of it.

Go and read through our chat history, I emailed to your hotmail.
But the gist of it is

• don't beat yourself up for flipping out and unable to handle the situation, it is stressful times you're going through, for ANYBODY
  it's part of our Fright, Flight, Fight response
• when you're hit with it, try to "remove yourself from the situation"... walk away.. take a drive to a park... the objective now is to prevent the tension from escalating
• bear in mind, as people get older, they don't think like they used to anymore, so pick your battles, no point wasting your energy in trying to win EVERYTHING
  for lack of a better comparison, "who is the bigger fool, the fool or the person who argues with a fool"
• New Mantra: Don't be slave to your emotions
• additional "snapping out" tip: find a new project that you can get excited in eg. a new dress pattern style you'd lke to wear, scarves etc

Always remember, this too will pass.

p/s - I realise the reason why it took so long for me to "snap out of it" is because I was pig-headed in just locking myself in my room, making myself feel like I cannot dig myself out of the rut....
notice that you felt better after you went out to teach and "removed yourself from the situation"
i also think partly the reason you got hit by the episode was cos, during the 1 week holiday, you spent quite a lot of time just in your room and din't go out much and socialise. So although last time, it was your MO to spend your off days chilling at home, well nowadays you need to change with the situation, need to get out a bit more for your sanity yeah....